pow! pow !! 2 shots to my heart ..
pow! pow !! 2 shots to my head
First excuse my grammar errors..i am no writer lol, i just write... ;)
pow!! pow !! pow!!! pow!!! breathing uncontrollably.... I fell down to my knees. Afraid of dying I cried out to God ... begging Jesus please spare me... please.. not now God ..Not today ..Give me a second chance.. My vision is getting blur.. I no longer can shout, but my inner is cryng out.. HELPPPPPPPPP!!!!!!!!
My heart lose its beat ....... June. 2012 I passed away. Welcome to the fruit of death.
I believe in order for a life to be created , someone has to lose theirs. This pass year I lost my LIFE, to gain my LIFE back. I remember the cry out like it was yesterday. Afraid, and not knowing what God was about to do I stripped myself naked.. I was just getting in from the gym too , soooo i thought it was the perfect opportunity to be washed clean.. WHile getting undressed i remember saying "ok, God here I go".
I am Naked standing in a cold room praying something comes out, but nothing..
approx: 3min pass
So I said " God please show me what I have to do. please God"
approx : 1 min pass of silence ..and my mouth started to move, but all i kept saying was " i trust you.......i trust you ....thank you ..thank you ... lord i trust you" this praise lasted about 5 min ... suddenly, i started seeing me as God saw me...tears.... He placed ME in front of Me.. I realized for the first time in my life, i was standing still from my own condemnation... tears rolling down my face... I told GOD " no condemnation...everything i lost you gving it back..everything i was carrying from my past i decided to release it that day..
i cried out ... i laid it All on the line that day.. I told GOD i was scared , but whatever it is you want to do with me DO IT!! I stood in humiliation, bc i knew the only person that understood my struggle, my condemnation, my guilt, my concerns, my worries and lies was GOD..
I never knew the increase of spiritual healing was near. I died in ordered to see God clearly. I am enjoying the new birthed "Andrea". I am always looking for God in everything i do...If i dont see him I dont GO, proceed, invest, nor give my time.. free yourself from yourself ,and allow GOD to come into your spirit and order your steps.
This is just my story....
Peace .Love. Blessings
-Feel free to FLY ,bc you have wings- a.everline
My biggest lie i have ever told.... (to be continued) next blog
